In the last three months my life has done a complete 180 and then another. Right now I am in the good of the 180s, but there are certain things about my life that I wish were better. The biggest one that I can think of right off the top of my head is the fact that my relationship with both my parents has deteriorated completely, and my wife's relationship is almost non existent.
Let me start at the fact that since January 13th, I've been to the mental hospital twice, prison and jail. My parents have had a rocky relationship with my wife from almost the beginning of me knowing her. She came and my parents ripped us a hard one. First time that my parents ever met her. And, I think since then for her, my parents have felt threatened of my wife/gf. The sad thing is this isn't the first time that my parents have been threatened. Kayla was a big threat to me leaving them. I really wanted to marry her, and they just spat in her's and my faces and I just conformed to what they wanted for me and not looking into my heart.
But now, since I've been to all the above places, the trust that they had for my wife, which was little to none, has left, even to the scary realm of my parents telling my wife to go to hell and that she worked with the devil and that she isn't right for me nor has she ever been right for me.
They are not right. And the sad thing is they are hiding in the shadows of the things they have said and done to me, and sadly, to my wife. My wife, rightly so, does not want a relationship with people who have treated her this way. I haven't made my position clear throughout all of this. And so I am kinda in a communication freeze with them right now. I haven't talked with my dad, because, ever since Christmas, he's been a Giant Jerk to me. It's not right. All because I suggested that They pay for the complete sum of the ticket instead of us.
I've had to hang up on them and specifically him, several times over because I couldn't handle talking to them and because they were being super disrespectful to me. I understand that Hanging up is also very disrespectful now, but it seemed like the only thing I could do to get them off my back at the time, in a not nice manner, of course.
My Dad is trying to reach out to my wife to get her involved in a Coronavirus devotional, but she is not going to be involved until an apology is received. Honestly, in light of everything that is going on, they should be reaching out to us to tell us how wrong they have been and with an apology.
I'm realizing things about my parents that I have been putting on blinders on all my life to not see. Specifically, like the fact that my parents have not been perfect the whole time I have been alive. That they make mistakes and that they can be really mean to the world, specifically my mom. She raised me, but I know her M. O. Complains a lot of the time and doesn't enjoy the place that she is in life. I love them, but I have been too close at times to them, not realizing the false indoctrination that they were teaching me.
