I'm in a program right now called Momentum. It is a like a program for adults that have hard times in their lives. Not all of them, if any of them (it's hard to tell) have just been to prison and jail like me. I think that a lot of the members of the program have mental illness, were drug or alcohol addicts, and people that have had traumatic experiences. It's cool to be in this society of people, because I feel like sometimes these are the only people that understand me in life, other than Cocco (my nurse) and especially my wife (who has been through it all already, or knows how to get me out of my psychosis).
I feel unsafe at the laundromat that is not close to my home. My wife thinks it is because I am racist, which may be so, but I feel more safe in my lit up laundromat that I can walk to at a moments notice than at a laundromat where everybody goes to next to a liquor store, a check into cash store, and a grocery store that doesn't feel very reputable to me. I guess I am racist. But I legitimately feel fearful almost every time I go there. Let it be because of the area, let it be because of the muscular men that all go to the liquor store in their muscular cars, let it be that I don't like how full t worse, a deportation truck come and pick me up and I have to go to prison once again and gehe place gets (busy). All of the above make me fearful, not just race. I am afraid of getting shot there, ort tazed or pepper spray, just because I was doing my laundry. Yes, they don't make sense, but everytime I go there, I feel unsafe. I wouldn't want to go there doing my laundry on my own. I feel much more comfortable in our laundromat that is connected with the apartment. I am just afraid.
