I just thought I'd notify you, since my letter was a bit cryptic to Jacob, what's been going on.
I have a job offer, one I didn't know I was going to get, and an opportunity to better my living situation with Sarah.
On Friday, Patrick extended a job offer to me through TIR (Teacher in Residence). He said I could think about it and text him throughout this week if I had any questions about the job or anything. He said the job is to be a High School special ed Algebra teacher. Craziness. Why? Well, one of the teachers there is resigning, and further digging with Aunt Kerry it seems like this teacher isn't making a rational decision and letting depression get the better of her.
I know it's not going to be easy, but how many things in life that are worth attaining are easy. Not a lot. If you want to see the view of Provo, you have to climb a very tall mountain to get there.
This job is kinda what I was shooting for when I first arrived in Arizona. I mean, I took the Special Ed NES test so that I could get a TIR job as soon as possible. But since then, I've come up with what I want to really do, and that is teach in a Choir room, teach music. But math is probably the second best thing.
I feel like I will be able to make a difference. I can be my kids role models. I can love them as my children. Help them achieve a love of math that my middle school and high school teachers instilled in me. The man (besides my dad) who played a big role in helping me have a love of math was Mr. Hall, from my 8th grade year. He taught and I listened.
So, yes, I think I'm going to take the job. It's not going to be easy, as with this job comes courses at Rio Salado college. But I am glad that I will be teaching students that are much more higher functioning than the kids that I have now. Not to bag on my kids, I love the kids that I work with now, and I will miss teaching their special souls.
Sarah told me she would support me either decision. She wanted me to be sure. Last night, at her request, I prayed to Heavenly Father, and I felt good about taking the job throughout the prayer and wrote down the pros and cons, and the pros outweighed the con list by a significant amount.
My biggest fear that I have now is whether or not I will be able to live my dream of becoming a choir teacher and music teacher. Of course, this is only a two year commitment. I can do my best in reaching out to whoever the choir teacher at Mesa High School is.
Anyways. Now you know my thoughts. I will have benefits, which is a huge plus in the condition that I am in.
