Prevision, a longing for 2007 john at home

HOME-SICK-NESS Dis ease, resulting in  a girlfriend that didn't attach herself to me, co dependently, even though I had starting that december, a new Christmas, and a new semester and a new 2008, vowing and decreeing that I would have her, which led me to fall into an outer spirit of Joy for her in may of the following year, on my mission and off it. Sadness struck. A longing that could never be made by HOME but by pure love, of christ. Gracious as it is to lead to my first vision in bed. With a man. Home sick was no fun, and has been no fun until I forgave myself of all of those things. It is no longer with me, that first vision.